It is almost amazing how fast my Senior Year is flying by. Everything isn’t as it seemed it would be. Though I knew that there would be a lot of stress and pressure this year, but I didn’t really know how much I would actually have till recently.
Senior Year really should be the time of your life. With looking forward to graduating, deciding on which college you want to go to, and just living it up with your friends. But as I sit here right now I honestly do not even know if I will graduate in June. Sometimes when you try your hardest, it just seems like it is enough. I have always grown up being told to try your hardest and never give up, so I will never give up on my goal of graduating. It just seems so far away at the moment.
With everything I have on my plate it is almost impossible to keep up with the demands of being a Senior and of being a teenager. I am constantly on the go balancing everything like it is a juggling act: School, Adult School, Work, Friends, and Family. It doesn’t really leave any time for me this year. I wake up every morning, go to school, go to adult school, come home, sleep, and then do it all over again. On the weekends I go to work, come home, and crash from sheer exhaustion. My life just seems to be passing me by without me really being in it. The days just seem to repeat one after another. With all the stress of getting my work done I feel like I am just about to crash into a never ending black hole of darkness.
When it truly comes down to it, this is my entire fault. I should have gone to school my first three years so that I didn’t have to sit in adult school classes struggling to make up the credits that I am missing. I wish that I could go back in time and change all of my mistakes that I made. I would have gone to class, done my homework, and paid attention when I was in class.
I don’t ever remember being this bad of a student growing up. I use to absolutely love school. I was even a straight A student till about 7th grade. When everything suddenly changed in my life, my whole reason for trying so hard in school was wiped away the day that my father was arrested. I use to do my school work so that I could escape the torment of my father. School work was my only release growing up. But I guess I just wore myself out before I even hit high school. I am not one of those kids who hate to learn and hates sitting in class. I actually do like to learn, and I like to feel like I am smart.
The stresses and pressures of this year are much worse then I could have ever imagined. I am already falling behind in most of my classes even though I am constantly struggling to keep up. I wasn’t really even able to enjoy Spirit Week this year. I really wanted to be able to help with our Senior Benchbuilding. But there just wasn’t enough time in my schedule to fit it in. But I did live it to the fullest. We won our Homecoming game and my Senior Class even got the “Triple Crown.” The “Triple Crown” is when a class wins all three of the categories for Spirit Week. The categories are Skit and Dance, Bench, and Spirit. So Senior Year hasn’t been all too bad.
Just what I wanted to say to all the underclassmen who are currently reading this is, please stay on task and keep your eye on graduating. Or else you might end up like me, overstressed with school, night school, and a job. You want to be able to relax and live up your Senior Year.